I thought about the little clues all day.  It is not as conclusive as the hair found at PJ’s bathroom that was worse.  This is just the little things that keeps me on my toes.  I don’t want another repeat of PJ or DT.  I have fun with those two and I have to pry myself away from them, I was in deep.  I feel that way with CH.  That is why I have to be cruel to him and not call him more then a week.  The scented candles is a pretty solid bad sign.  I have to ask him about that.  Maybe he likes me a lot and doesn’t want to spoil me.  He was like that with his pets too.  He tries not to let them get their way.  I still thinks he lies a lot to get what he wanted.   Depending on how bad he wants it, he’s willing to spin some tales.  So the other time the real estate agent call him, it was the Vienamese girl?  I think so he was pretty chummy with her. He is only divorce for a yr, all the traping tells me so.  His place is bare with no furniture.  And if he is still using his ex’s insurance in Jan then that is the most important fact. 

At the rose garden the only thing that was missing was the violins.  That will make it the most romantic date that I ever have.  It was fun feeding him logan while he was driving.  Oh, boy that is the life that I want, away from the fear and gloom.  Life in the East Bay is not bad. I mean I can shop in Oakland and Berkeley and that will be great for me.  Growing roses in CH’s backyard, walking Cloe. 

We went dangerously close to DT’s house. We drove by the Claremont Hotel.  Yes, I grow sad for a second but I refuse to let the ghost of the pass drag me down.  He have already taken too much from me.  He should be dead gone and forgotten.