The days are greyer and less joy without friends. I feel cornered and lost without Selina’s loud laugh and Marj’s incoherent rents. Not mentioning the loads are spread on my shoulders now. In fighting stills there and works pass it on from one person the the next and I got the blunt of the stick. Marj is the work horse no doublt about it. C doesn’t move an in and then tells us what to do. Laka have to do C’s job and then she got tired and I have to pack int now; I don’t like it. I feel trap that I may not find another job with such high pay and the notion of just walk off is out of option now.
Think about the road ahead is grim. Its a good thing that my job pays above head and shoulder then anyone out there. But it also signifies I have no where else to go except change fields and be my own boss. Its a scary though I may have to do that.
There hasn’t been a better dahlia seasons. Such nice blooms. LM got booted out his new playground because it charges $35. They want to buy useless things. Too bad he turn down the leadership role but then he can’t be both. Tricky. Still got a bumper crop of beans at least.
I still have nightmares about my family. They have done so much to harm me seeing them in dreams brings stress and unsettling.
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