I returned his chocolate/.  Its a bit too fancy and too sophisticated for me.  I think 3 flavored chocolate caramel doesn’t make me go wild.  I had about 25% of it and I think am not looking for rosemary cocolate caramel., I think he would enjoy it much more.  I ate all the ones that I like already.  He got me a red rhody, so pretty.  And he took 2 phal orchid from his yoga studio and gave it to me.  seriously, he should buy it somewhere.  Its only $3 at the flower mart, if he is patient and willing to go there manytimes.  I debate with myself if I should see him because the way he acted last time bawling in front of me at the bus stop.  I took him to see the hidden garden with plum in full blooms.  It is a magical sight because within a week or so they will be all fallen off if there is rain which there will be.  He helped me plant some plants that I got from my parents.  The geranium will be stunning there, next to the rose and agapanthus.  I think I am running out of rooms if I don’t clear the weedy looking iris.  I much wish that it is the white kind but its the yellow one with yellow leaves mind you.  He took me home we have tea and went to the garden and we poke around and plant some cuttings of the princess flowers and iris.  I pick a bunch of cocosimia and took the bus home, this time he didn’t cry.  I took the poppy seedlings home if they are any bigger they won’t be any good for transplant.  I make a mistake of taking a short cut from the garden about 9pm.  Jesus rudy was there.  I almost ran.  I hope he won’t be there tommorrow  because i need to plant the poppies.  It will be so grant to have a field of poppies!

With the amount of hardship that I have endure I think I am more then worthy of being an artist.  Its not so much as “hardship” being left homeless or something but went head to head with stupid people, the fustration of not being heard even though I am right.  mY hair turned white just the stress.  Marj, Seline, always turn on me at the worse possible moment.  K constantly hounding me, then of course the nutty landlord with their unbelieveable rules.  SHe forbids us to wash laundry in the bathtub.  WHere in the world can we wash it???  Alice ruin the washing machine.  No one can use it now.  Not that I’m allow at anytime. Landlady blames us for the rats but hey, look at the dam doors with the huge hole on the bottom.  all the rats can comes in and out through the door.  Everyone walk with their street shoes while no one is watching on the kitchen floor.   It is like being homeless, I don’t like being there if I have better place to be.  No light to paint.  I have not did 1 painting since I moved.  MY room is slowly getting too crowned to live in, too much paper works.  My junk mail is a big stack.  I kind of worry about making a living.  Money is not a problem since I count my penny. 

My so call career is going down the drain.

First I have a hard time with S and M and then at DGM’s they are interviewing for my job. They want someone to cover tue and thur and I can’t do Tue because my other job changed my schedule.

Jesus.  I will have to worry about my rent?  I want to save a lot of money.  Ahrrrrr, that means I am back on that dreadful roller coaster of a temp agency pool.  I will have to go to god knows where for some temp gig.  Jen must be happy so does that Dk bitch. Today they were messing around and late seeing pt.  I know Remi is happy that they are messing up.  KD was bitchy to Linda and Remi when it comes to her schedule when someone moved her pt.  HEr tone of voice is very alarming.   They have ditched me before. I forgot what happen but I was back in 3 months or so.  But meanwhile what am I to do? I enjoy getting pay a full salary like those people I work at my main job but I have 1 free day to myself.  Well, that will be the end of it and I will have to look for another job. Its not easy to get a 1 day job.  my days are too odd.  No luck in romance and bad luck at work.  What to do?  The new yr just started, I can’t believe I am still having bad luck.

Yesterday when I get the free lucky bamboo from a CL ad, I have to wait for 2 hrs and then I lost $4. Its a long story. I was being nice going to buy her some tangerines. I think I put the change in the wallet. It must have been open and it came out and either I dropped it or it was in the bag of tangerines.  The lucky bamboo is bad luck?

I have my rent money too but I didn’t lost that. SO many it is lucky that I didn’t drop it. Iwent to the FMCG to find some garbage. More iris too.  Tons of carnation cuttings and geraniums. No idea what color it is.  I have lots to worry about.   So becareful with my money.  Maybe I was pick pocketed????